DisSatisfied !!!

Life's passin away each day, n it seems like i m tryin to grab what i dun have...

Is it natural to want or grab what is not urs n what can't b urs?? anyways, whether its natural or not, dats d case wid me... it seems like at the end of every day,i m kinda, dissatisfied... dissatisfied wid my life, everythin...i m dissatisfied wid d food i eat, wid d things i shop, n even wid d articles i write...dunno wats wrong..its like i m lookin for sth... initiallly i felt i m dissatisfied coz i m not into d field or area of my choice but it feels like now i do not have any desires to pursue anythin..dunno wats wrong..i wanna get reviatlised, remotivated but not sure wats holdin me back..feels like i've lost it.. feels like i've lost sth or may b i haven't found sth n m waitin for it...but dunno wats it..m goin crazy... i wanna aspire n aim high..seems dat i m bein able to do it only explicitly..

i m lookin for means to overcome dis stupid dissatisfaction...at times,i think its only in my mind...well, i guess i'll have to do stuff now..so, i have decided to do things n c to it dat de make me happy...but wat do i do???? i need a motivation... can someone suggest me one????(before i die gettin bored of everythin in my life....)

Nhey, m dissatisfied wid dis post also...after all, i didn't want to b cribbin abt my probs on my blog...anyways, already thru wid it..now i need a soln... he he

When I m Gone...

There's another world inside of me

That you may never see

There's secrets in this life

That I can't hideSomewhere in this darkness

There's a light that I can't find

Maybe it's too far away...

Maybe I'm just blind...

So hold me when I'm here

Right me when I'm wrong

Hold me when I'm scared

And love me when I'm gone

Everything I am

And everything you need

I'll also be the one

You wanted me to be

I'll never let you down

Even if I couldI'd give up everything

If only for your good

So hold me when I'm here

Right me when I'm wrong

You can hold me when I'm scared

You won't always be there

So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

When your education x-ray

Can not see under my skin

I won't tell you a damn thing

That I could not tell my friends

Roaming through this darkness

I'm alive but I'm alone

Part of me is fighting this

But part of me is gone

So hold me

when I'm here....

ThE emPty BoaT....

LIFE:

Its all static, nothings moving, life becomes an inferno, and that makes it all so unliveable!when you never reach the abyss of reason, and you never find the questions to which you want to answer. when veracity becomes far from your approach, the dream machine becomes void.Nothing has a meaning, nothing has an explanation, your lost, your uncertain, you dont believe.Your prayers become hollow, and you cant seem to figure out what to ask, you will deny the riches, because you still want to know who you are before they make you someone.When you believe in the existance without any fervour and talk without a verve, you are incoherent, you are ridiculous noone want to know who you are.When your lies stand in your own way and you lose something you'll never replace, you are a lier, you are not clear!
thats exactly who i am! A person....left out with a mess.....

There's no one for me out here.....

All DarkneSS

all empty !!!!

Don't Fool Yourself.

When all da world is looming dark.... n things seems not so clear.... We,Persevere.

When shadow seem to hover' round we ask lord may i Persevere.....

Life is full of queires...... We don't know what will happen with us.... We don't know that the person who's giving smile to our face will become reason for all our tears...... Anything can happen..... But still we try to make our mind in all da matters..... try to figure out da matter in postive way.... make us understand....make us feel beeter by humble thoughts... I've been doing the same when-so-ever i was clashed with problems in ma life..... But this time it left me questioning that are we doing this correct?? Are we doing right by making up our mind n forget the bitter truth...... Dis time it clicked me with the answer NO... I mean why should we make ourseleves fool by forgeting the truth n expalin us in a way which soothes us... aren't we lieing to our self?? our soul?? This is not the correct way.... I've been always fighting with what-so-ever life gave on ma way....When it seemed eveyrthing is been tried but there is no way to go....i keept on rememinding myself dat sometimes the life's journey becomes slow.... i always tried to give n postive aspect to all the problems.. i kept on teeling myself that i just need to stop n rest along the path i troad.... and always kept on teeling myself that now it's time to sit and anlayse da situation.... it's da time for me to have my talk with god.... try to make myself understand dat somehow things will be allright and so i Persevere... That's what i did always, make myself understand n forget wht ever happend but today i felt that i've been doing very wrong... cos i was just making myself fool n lieing to myself all da time.... n dats the reason eveyrbody starts taking us for granted... n keep on hurting us all da time n i felt i was killing myself all da time..... I know life can be difficult at times.... but we should not everytime keep on leeting go for the things we should not. Don't allow urself to be played by somebody... be yourself....and have faith in yourself. Stop making urself fool.....

Don't tolerate for wrong things.

Aim For The HEART By Tom Mathews

Today morning i went through this touching article....so thought of sharing it...

"People are like sticks of dynamite. The power is on the inside, but nothing happens until the
fuse gets lit." What a great quote, and every leader should take it to heart. Deep inside we all want people in our lives who will help to make us all we can be. You can be that person for the members of your team. Providing timely encouragement, recognition and support will help to light the fuse...and, in many instances, unleash their emotional energy. I recently read a wonderful story about a young man who played for the legendary Alabama football coach, Bear Bryant. Bear had a third stringer on this team named Henry Peterson. Henry had never gotten to play, and just before the Alabama-Auburn Game, Bryant got a call from Henry.

He said, "Coach, my Dad died and I won't be able to make it to the game on Saturday."
Bear said, "No problem, son, you should be with your family." However, the next day Bear
got another call from Henry, and he said, "Coach, I got to thinking about it and I don't want
to let the team down. I'm going to be there." Sure enough on Saturday, Henry was dressed
and ready to play. Just before the game he walked over the Bear and said, "Coach, I want you to start me today." Bear said, "Son, are you nuts? This is the Alabama-Auburn game, and you've never played." Well, Henry persisted, and Bryant, never knowing why, said, "Okay, I'll put you in on the first play." Henry Peterson scored three touchdowns in the first half...he almost beat Auburn by himself. Bear, at halftime, walked over and said, "Son, I don't know whether to kiss you or kill you. Why haven't you shown me you can play football like that?" Henry said, "Coach, did you ever see me walking around the campus with my Dad?" Bear said, "Yes, I have seen you." Henry then said, "Coach, my Dad was blind and today is the first day he
ever got to watch me play football."
AS A LEADER, YOU CAN NEVER UNDERESTIMATE
THE POWER OF EMOTIONAL ENERGY.

One timely shot of inspiration can quickly change negative thoughts into positive results for a
member of your team. You must always ask yourself, "Am I doing all I can to help them become
all they can be?"

Alone.......

“My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart’s the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find meTill then I walk alone!!!!”
…. And d quest goes on!!!!
Just wondering if I really want someone to be a part of my life… n what role is dat someone supposed to play… n hey, y do I need someone?? M I lonely, or do I not have sufficient ppl to share my life wid or is it just a fad???
Apparently ppl always feel dat I m n independent person wid practically no emotions n totally insensitive nature… Is dat d way I really m or is dat d message I wish to convey???
Too many question!! I wonder y m I always surrounded by questions… or is it me who surrounds question?? Uh oh, another question…
Anyways, I guess now I m gonna sit n analyse d situation….
Uh…
Well…
Oh my God…
I forgot wat m I supposed to analyse..
:-(

On a serious note, it suddenly feels like inspite of everyone I m missin on sumthng… or someone…. Well , I have a dear dear sis whom I would willingly share stuff wid, but who is too far to talk of everyday trifles… n der are a lotta frens…but still I want someome… God knws whom … But I believe I knw wat dat person shd be like….
Ø I want someone who is always by my side (not only physically)
Ø Someone who doesn’t need me to talk to comprehend wats goin on in my mind (if der is anything n if I have one)
Ø Someone who accepts me unconditionally
Ø Someone who doesn’t get tired of my stupid queries n innumerable desires (though de r only trifles like flowers, sweet nothings, cards, n remember my special days n significant stuff of my life)
Ø N d most of all, dat person shd make me want him n yet not have me depend on him…

But after mentioning all dis points.....i feel again like i don't need anybody......

oh god...!!! 'm really confused n i really don't know wht to do......

At present 'm finding everything fake n feeling too alone.... but tht's fine me&my-self r enough.... don't need any damn person in my life.........

Small Things~Big Learning's

I was Surprised when i learnt something from des small little sweetie "ant". Yes an Ant.Whenever 'm sitting alone load's many thoughts starts with da gushin speed....n sumthing or da other goes on...i have noticed des little ant...how dey love eachother...how do dey live their life n how dis small ant made me note them...really....small things play a very big role in life...dat's wht i have mentioned in my pervious post also...n here's da 2nd example of small little things...n small little pleasure's....so lemme share - "THE ANT " I think everybody should study ants.Dey have an amazing four~part, and here is the "First Part":- Ants never quit. Dat's a good point. If dey're headed somewhere and you try to stop them; dey'll look for another way. Dey'll climb over, dey'll climb under, dey'll climb around. Dey keep looking for another way. What a neat philosophy i must say! To never quit looking for a way to get where you're supposed to go.

Secondly, ants think winter all summer. Dat's n important perspective. You can't be so naive as to think summer will last forever. So ants are gathering in their winter food in da middle of summer.

Da third part of da ant is dat ants think summer all winter.Dat is so important. During da winter, ants remind themselves, "Dis won't last long; we'll soon be out of here." And da first warm day, da ants are out. If it turns cold again, dey'll dive back down, but den dey come out the first warm day. Dey can't wait to get out.
And here's da last part of da ant philosophy. How much will an ant gather during da summer to prepare for da winter? All dat he possibly can. What an incredible point, da "all-that-you-possibly-can".
Wow, what a great seminar to attend - Da ant seminar. "Never give up, look ahead, stay positive and do all you can. "
So start noticing to Small things in Life....it reallie~reallie gives u bigger Happiness...and bigger Learnings too!!!